Rewind and play back in slow-motion

My first really strong experience with noticing my feelings origin and affect though the body, was at a traffic light in about 2015.

I was on my bike and waiting for the green light.

A woman joined me, and I felt the urge to get her attention by saying something. I do not remember what it was though.

Before any words had passed my lips, I realised that I was not interested in her at all.

So, why would I want her attention?

I decided to try and relive the situation to understand the process within me.

I discovered that I could rewind the process and in slow-motion I could sense how a feeling started in my abdomen moved up though my body, I noticed how I was asking for confirmation and at the end the thought was produced and ended on the tip of my tongue.

Rewind and play back in slow-motion

My first really strong experience with noticing my feelings origin and affect though the body, was at a traffic light in about 2015.

I was on my bike and waiting for the green light.

A woman joined me, and I felt the urge to get her attention by saying something. I do not remember what it was though.

Before any words had passed my lips, I realised that I was not interested in her at all.

So, why would I want her attention?

I decided to try and relive the situation to understand the process within me.

I discovered that I could rewind the process and in slow-motion I could sense how a feeling started in my abdomen moved up though my body, I noticed how I was asking for confirmation and at the end the thought was produced and ended on the tip of my tongue.